28th February 2006

Today's quiz can be apprpriately summarized in a short equation.

Quiz Results = [0.1(Percentage Studied - Percentage un-understandable) + 0.9(Good Luck)] x 10

Can u see the high explanatory power of good luck and the low explanatory power of studying for the stupid quiz? Well, you get the idea. This equation doesn't really brood too well for me as the latest journal entry on my books read
Dr Impariment Loss - Good Luck
Cr Good Luck Asset

Gosh. You get what I mean right? Let's hope the extent of the impairment isn't too great. You need a lot of luck when they set quizzes that test you on remote items amongst the many SSAs that you have to read. It is like a big treasure hunt with the answer being the treasure. Gosh gosh gosh gosh.

27th February 2006 Monday

Haven't been studying much for my AA304 quiz tomorrow. Been busy doing my Final year Project in preparation for the interview with CASE's exectuvei director next week. But on another note, is there really value in studying much for a 10 MCQ quiz? I have a feeling that it wouldn't make much of a difference again, as always. Well, let's hope that I do make it for the quiz tomorrow. The concepts are confusing and SSAs are really complicated things. Sigh~

24th February 2006 Friday

Bad day today. Eye is as swollen as ever and probably even worse than before. I have five times more people asking about my eye than before. Gosh. Did the doctor hate me that much to give me poison to put on my eye or what? Just kidding. I better clarify this before someone sue me for slander or something. Just to be safe you know, seeing the amount of people getting sued recently because of what they have written on their blogs. Anyway, on another sidenote, today I was having breakfast with Pigcake and HL and Pigcake mentioned about the kind of girls that he like. Well, as usual, if you know Pigcake personally, you would know who he brought up in his speech again. Anyway, as Pigcake is going on and on about you know who (Gosh. This sounds like Harry Potter!), the topic sort of deviated to me and I don't quite remember what we were exactly talking about when HL brought up something about him feeling that I will like cute and bubbly girls. Hmm. Actually, I don't really know what kind of girls I like but I guess I must have sort of liked bubbly girls because the answer that I gave HL is - "I guess so but not too bubbly ones". Haha. I actually did that without much thinking. Gosh. Is that the truth or what? Hmm. I guess I haven't seriously considered this question before but I don't believe in really having criteria for liking a person. As I have mentioned before, if you liked someone because of something that he/she has, does it mean that if he/she loses that thing, your love will be lost too? The setting of criteria in a way or another sort of make us look shallow ain't it? And besides, how many of us who are in a relationship now have a partner who satisfies 100% of our criteria? Hmm. Anyway, a more recent understanding is perhaps that love is when a person appears at the right time. What do you think?

22nd February 2006 Wednesday

Wednesday. Free day for me. No lessons and I seem to be treating it like a holiday too. That is considering that I haven't done any studying for today and I am still at the East Asian Miracle readings for my 312 module. Gosh. When will I ever get out of the Miracle? Or maybe I just don't wish to get out. That I don't know but I am definitely not putting in the effort. Someone please nudge me and wake me up! And by that, I don't mean those kind of nudges you send over MSN. So what have I been doing the whole day if I have not been studying? Well, I am kind of wondering that myself. How did the time pass so fast? Weird. I guess I have effectively stoned the entire day away!!! Gosh. Is there a special prize for the longest stoner in the world? Now, I know that is getting a bit cold. But this is my blog and I shall blog whatever I want down on it. Yawn. Got a lab session tomorrow that I haven't done any preparations for. I hope I get enough determination to read at least something about the ACL software I will be using tomorrow. Or risk becoming a goldfish and gape and blink blankly at the tutor tomorrow.

21st February 2006 Tuesday

Went to watch Final Destination 3 today, courtesy of Yes 933 FM. The plot was the same as its predecessors and the way the characters died weren't anyway less gross than Final Destination 1 and 2. The way the deaths took place were also marvellously arranged by Death, so as to speak. Overall, my advice for those intending to watch the show is - It is definitely not for those who get sick by seeing bloody stuff. Some of the scenes were really bloodily gross.

19th February 2006 Sunday

Mum went for cruise again. I guess if it weren't for this reason, I probably would not be online and blogging at this hour of the night. I simply love and appreciate every second that I have my room all to myself. I enjoy every second of the late night, just listening to some songs that I like, thinking or reminiscing about the past. Sounds pathetic huh? Well, I do think the silence of the night does bring out the other you in you. When you can observe yourself from a different angle. Something like from a third party's point of view. Well, just my personal opinion. Tonight is but a night of reminiscence about the past. About my foolish past. Looking back, there was definitely nothing much more than just plain foolishness. I guess if I were given another chance to re live my past, I'd probably lead it in a different way that I had led it. But who wouldn't if given the chance to wind back the clock? So I guess there just wasn't any point grumbling about it ain't it? I guess this is perhaps as what my friend has mentioned, the need in Man to be in control of their lives but yet, since when has life been controllable? Well, I don't know. Since when have I ever known anything?

(PS: Happy Birthday to ES. He wished me happy birthday through 3 different channels on my birthday so I thought I should also do it through more than one medium this time to show my appreciation.)

15th February 2006 Wednesday

I was looking into the skies last night and that was when I realized how amazing the stars that I so adore are. At a first glance, there seemed to be only one star in the dark blue sky. However, when I really concentrated my vision, I could see many many more stars, glowing dimly in the distant skies. Perhaps the stars never ever do vanish. Perhaps they have always there, whether we see them or not. Perhaps, they only appear in the darkest of nights to light the way ahead of us. Just like many things in life. At a first glance, perhaps you will only notice the brightest of us all. However, if you really concentrated your gaze, you might feel and see more people around you, even those that you might not have noticed before. Perhaps you will discover the many stars that have always been there, shining upon you, lending you support through your darkest hours.

You have always been my star, whether I know it or not, whether you know it or not......

14th February 2006 Tuesday

Just got to know the origin of Valentine's Day from Nanyang Chronicles yesterday. Guess it is appropriate that I share this little knowledge in this season of love.

"Valentine's Day is a day when we commemorate the death of Saint Valentine, the priest who defied the orders of Emperor Claudius II to stop all marriages and eventually gave up his life for his belief in love and marriage."

Happy Valentine's Day to all. May love be everywhere this season and the days that follow~~~

13th February 2006 Monday

Peppermintgreentea learnt seven very important lessons today.

Lesson 1: My finger is significantly thinner than the gap on my fan cover. When I woke up this morning, I accidentally kicked over my fan and in my haste to catch it before it fell, the forefinger on my right hand went right into the oscillating blades. I guess I don't have the elaborate further on whether I managed to keep the fan from falling.
Lesson 2: The forefinger contains more blood than I thought it would contain. Would you believe if I told you that the rate the blood dripped out of my finger could put a tiny tap to shame?
Lesson 3: I am immune to pain. Well, at least for at least 5 minutes. I didn't notice the big cut on my finger till I saw the blood all over the floor. And I just stood and see the blood dripping for at least another 20 seconds before I realised that it is appropriate for me to take some actions to stop the bleeding.
Lesson 4: The forefinger on my right hand is very important. Especially in things like typing, writing and using the mouse on the computer. I feel slightly disabled due to having to get it out of the way while doing those stuff mentioned.
Lesson 5: Man really do adhere to REMM. I am still typing despite the wound on my finger. Haha.
Lesson 6: I finally found the CSF of Nanyang Business School. Well, those who have been with me today will know what I mean.
Lesson 7: Lessons carry on as usual and the tutor will not slow down her speed of talking for the sake of a guy who can't take down notes as fast because of his injured finger.

12th February 2006 Sunday

If I didn't remember wrongly, today marks the end of the fifteen days of Chinese New Year. Gosh. How time flies. And to think that I have yet to even get into the Chinese New Year mood yet and now, it is over. Today also marks the end of the fourth week into the final semester of my University life. Well, at least I hope it is the final semester for me. Readings are still lagging like mad. I guess there just isn't any way that I am ever going to keep up to date. Gosh. At the end of every semester, I always promise myself that I am going to work harder the next semester. Well, at least with regard to keeping up to readings. But I never ever fulfill that promise. In fact, I am getting further away from fulfilling it with every coming semester. I must agree with Avarian about the part about attention span shortening with every semester. Am I really that undetermined a person? Well, I don't know. You can judge for yourself. Anyway, boring Sunday for me. Been slipping in between sleeping, online and reading modes. (Sleeping mode definitely taking up much more time than reading mode. *Shake head*) Now I am wondering what mode to switch to for the rest of the night. I guess the odds is probably for the television mode. I wonder why I just couldn't get back the zest that I had in year 1 for studying. Is it the fatique? Or is it something else? I don't know......

Since when has my mood become dependent on your actions and inactions?

11th February 2006 Sunday

冷冷的星期日凌晨。对着冷冷的电脑荧幕。听着歌，发着呆，想着你。。。。。。

10th February 2006 Friday

How many times in life are we filled with regrets? How many times in life do we feel so helpless, powerless and miserable? How many times in life do we look back and thought of what we could have done to make our life better? How many times have we looked back only to regret what we have done? To regret the way we had walked the path? I guess the answer is many many times. Read a friend's blog and the sadness in her latest entry sort of rubbed off me. I remembered this was what I messaged her after I saw her entry - "Try not to look back and wonder what it might have been. Because this never ever helps anything. Instead, try to look forward and think of what may be." I thought that sounded logical. However, in retrospect, I guess it was much easier to say so than to really do it. Thought that you have gotten over it? But I guess it still hurts somewhere deep inside when someone mentions about something that might have been or a destination that you will never reach. Let the tides of time gradually wash us (Us includes you) into space, far away from the place where we got hurt......

9th February 2006 Thursday

So happy. Finally finished the last bit of my AA304 project, that being the presentation bit. Today's presentation went fine. In fact, I am still quite amazed by myself for being able to memorise such a long script. In fact, I was so worried yesterday about me forgetting what to say during the presentation. So much so that I even had a nightmare about the presentation in my dreams last night. Gosh. Those of you who are reading this must have found this really funny and me really idiotic. But hey, don't laugh k? I was really worried. Show some sympathy. Anyway, the content of our presentation didn't went over too well to the tutor, especially the identification of internal control weaknesses part. Our tutor didn't seem to have the same views as us regarding this section and we spent rather a lot of time arguing, or rather discussing it. Anyway, as you all might have guessed, it turned out that our views were of course wrong and the tutor's views were right. Anyway, think the main idea was not to get the right answer but rather, to learn something through the session. Some people might think I am mad to say this but what else could I say? Isn't that supposed to be the perfect ideal answer? Haha.

Went for lunch after the presentation. That was when ES started warning me about rumours that might emerge if I didn't quit my habit of constantly mentioning a certain someone these days. But for the sake of ES, I will clarify this again: I keep mentioning her because she is an idol k? That's all! And I will appreciate if you think of it along the correct line of thought. =p

8th February 2006 Wednesday

It still hurts when they mention a destination that I am never ever going to reach......

7th February 2006 Tuesday

Went to the temple to pray today. Was thinking that I have yet to go there to pray since I started this new semester so thought I might as well do it today since I am relatively free today. (Relatively free if you exclude the amount of readings that I am currently lagging. I think those readings could probably burst a ring file if they were ever put in one.) Anyway, ZX tagged along and pulled me along to Seiyu to shop for a book and a Valentine's Day card. That was only when I realised that Valentine's Day is exactly a week away! Not that I have anything to worry about for that day or anything like that. (In fact, poor me haven't even got any programs for that day. Anyone want to ask me out? Haha. Just kidding. I do have something on. Remember the ring file of readings that I mentioned only about a second ago? *Wink*) But I can't help but be a little more sentimental and think a little more whenever such occasions arrive. Anyway, that short shop at Seiyu and something that ZX said (or rather the way he said it) got me thinking. Got me thinking about what really is love or rather how do you really define "someone you love". Isn't it amazing that a word that gets repeated millions of times a day all around the world has yet to have a widely accepted meaning? Isn't it amazing how many people around the world wonder whether the person beside them is truly the one they love? So how would you define love? Or how would you define someone you love? To me, I don't really know how to define love. Or rather, whenever I come up with a definition, I'd probably get ten thousand people telling me that my definition is wrong. So what? I should look up a dictionary for that? Hmm. But I do have a personal definition for "that someone that you love" and I do hope that I won't get another ten thousand people shooting my definition down. My personal definition for someone you love is - someone who you want to share your happiness with. Some might ask - "How about the person you want to share your sadness with? Isn't that supposed to be the person that you love?" Amazingly, I would say no. The person that you want to share your sadness with is probably the person that you SHOULD love but he/she might not be the person that you love. I just can't bring myself to define the person that you only think of when you are sad as the person that you love. Hmm. I don't know. What do you think?

3rd February 2006 Friday

Went to Outram yesterday with Pigcake. Finally got my Guo Mei Mei's album. After hearing the entire album, I must say that her ballads are really really good. You should try hearing them if you haven't already done so. My favourites so far are "Shi Tou Jian Dao Bu", "Liang Nan", "Gou Gou Shou" and "Ai Shi Ni Yan Li De Yi Shou Qing Ge". Had lunch at Outram market after the CD shopping spree. That was also when I realised that Pigcake can really eat. Two persons share of claypot chicken rice, one cup of sugarcane and one bowl of peanut soup with six tang yuans. Gosh. How could such a thin person eat that much? Wonder where all the food gets stored in that body. Went home after that and the rest of the day could be summarized in one word - sleep.

Was a good boy today as I went for the lecture that had about one third of the lecture theatre missing. Lecture is as boring as ever and my eye is still swollen. Gosh. I guess the mosquito that bit me must have been a commando trainee. It probably succeeded in getting its red beret after it stung me in the eye. Oops. Is that joke a little cold? Guess I's better stop here before I turn my blog into a cyber freezer.

Suffering from cognitive dissonance......

2nd February 2006 Thursday

I really have no idea what to write today but I still feel like writing something. Since the first few days of the Chinese New Year has just passed, how about me writing about the top ten lessons that I have learnt this New Year. In no particular order:

Lesson 1: If you are thinking of being hardworking and get some serious work done during the Lunar New Year holidays, think again. It never ever works out the way you wanted to.
Lesson 2: Nothing ever changes after the Lunar New Year holidays. Lessons are as boring as ever and the amount of readings never ever decreases.
Lesson 3: Everyone has a sad past whether they do say it or do not say it.
Lesson 4: I am beginning to like Guo Mei Mei's ballads more and more. If you are intending to go "Eeeee", think again. This website is programmed to make your monitor explode once you do that.
Lesson 5: When you get "11" for blackjack and are hoping for a "10" to come your way, there is a 95% chance that you will get 22 and above.
Lesson 6: The more you try not to think of someone, you will miss that someone even more.
Lesson 7: Most new year messages are recycled year after year. Who ever said that Singaporeans are not supportive of recycling?
Lesson 8: The world is unfair. I eat a lot and become fat. My friends eat even more but remain thin. Who ever said that eating makes you fat? Eating makes you thin!
Lesson 9: Every Lunar New Year feels the same as every single one that precedes it. So why am I bothering to write about what I have learnt? Go on to Lesson 10 to find out more.
Lesson 10: Because I love writing rubbish on my blog when I am bored. So perhaps that is one lesson that you, who is reading my blog now should be warned about.