19th February 2006 Sunday

Mum went for cruise again. I guess if it weren't for this reason, I probably would not be online and blogging at this hour of the night. I simply love and appreciate every second that I have my room all to myself. I enjoy every second of the late night, just listening to some songs that I like, thinking or reminiscing about the past. Sounds pathetic huh? Well, I do think the silence of the night does bring out the other you in you. When you can observe yourself from a different angle. Something like from a third party's point of view. Well, just my personal opinion. Tonight is but a night of reminiscence about the past. About my foolish past. Looking back, there was definitely nothing much more than just plain foolishness. I guess if I were given another chance to re live my past, I'd probably lead it in a different way that I had led it. But who wouldn't if given the chance to wind back the clock? So I guess there just wasn't any point grumbling about it ain't it? I guess this is perhaps as what my friend has mentioned, the need in Man to be in control of their lives but yet, since when has life been controllable? Well, I don't know. Since when have I ever known anything?

(PS: Happy Birthday to ES. He wished me happy birthday through 3 different channels on my birthday so I thought I should also do it through more than one medium this time to show my appreciation.)