29th September 2004 Wednesday

"Life without a soul is not much different from before except that your brain just stops working. You don't get to think about what to do. Your body just does it for you. But on the other hand, this means you don't get worries on your mind......

You also become emotionless, feeling nothing including pain. Although it takes away your ability to feel happiness, it takes away sadness, disappointment and heartache too......

Life without a soul might perhaps be a better life then before......"

27th September 2004 Monday

" I gasped for breath as the hooded figure bent closer to my mouth. I knew exactly what it intended to do but I couldn't do anything to stop the condemned creature.
'Expecto....Expecto....Patronum'
I muttered in an attempt to stop the Dementor from advancing. The silvery wisp of smoke emanating from my wand tip did no better in stopping the drawing distance then a fly would have done in stopping a stampede. I could feel the foul breath of the creature blowing against my nose. A warmth rose from the depths of my body to my frozen lips. I knew that this was the end.
As the warmth escaped through my lips, bits and pieces of the past flashed past what is left of my brain. An unhappy childhood...the coldness of being alone...Hermione and Ron having fun in the Shrieking Shack without me....the burning sensation that Cho had left on my cheeks....Sirius lying dead....Malfoy gloating at me.....the smug grin on Umbridge's face.....the fail grade awarded by Snape.....
As the wand handle slipped from my hand and I felt the last rush of pain, I smiled instead..... At least all these has come to end. At least there will be no repetition of such pain. At least....at least......I could no longer feel any pain."

24th September 2004 Friday

" I let out a sigh of relief as the bell went off signalling the end of a double Potions class. Four hours facing Snape was hell. The usual snide remarks were made and the usual zero mark awarded. At least I got the weekend to look forward to. This weekend is a Hogsmead weekend, meaning I get to chill out at the nearby wizard town with my best friends, Hermione Granger and Ron Weasely. A huge jug of butterbeer was just manifesting in my brain when I ran into somebody round the corridor......Ouch!"

21st September 2004 Tuesday

" I sigh as I lift my quill off my parchment. Ten feet of parchment finally done. I closed the familiar law book and looked at the finished work lying quietly on the table in front of me. Somehow I knew I could have done better but......

I lift my eyes off the table and looked out of the dust covered windows of the tower. Rain splashed on the glass panes, illuminated by the occasional flash of a lightning. I imagined how it would feel flying outside on my Firebolt, with the rain splashing against my glasses and the cold breeze blowing in my face. I was still in dream world when the portrait hole opened behind me and a familiar figure stepped in. I turned just in time to catch the grin on Sirius' face. 'Game Time......'"

20th September 2004 Monday

First day of school......

"The sky dimmed as I looked up from the gigantic book of law lying beside the piece of parchment that I was still scribbling on five minutes ago. Three feet of parchment. Seven more to go. As the last rays of sunlight flashed past the scarlet sky, I took out the Time Turner from my robes and gave the tiny hourglass two turns. Time started to reverse. I could feel the heat of the sun once again on my back. I looked up at the mantelpiece where Hedwig was still perched upon. She looked serene as she slept on. I looked back at the piece of unfinished work still lying upon my desk and wondered whether two turns of the Time Turner was sufficient for it. As I stared at the ink blotched piece of parchment, images of an angry Snape with my unfinished assignment in his hand throbbed through my twisted brain. Convulsed, I picked up my quill, dipped it in the ink bottle and scribbled on......"

18th September 2004 Saturday

Can't the world be a simple place where everyone could do what they want and say what they feel? Can't everyone look past physical appearance into the heart? Must the world be a place where everyone has to be wary of everyone? Must we wear a mask in facing the world? *Sigh* How I hope that I can return to those days when I was a child. How I wish I could be as innocent as a child again. How I wish time could go back to those times......Is there not a second chance? Super tired of the world......

17th September 2004 Friday

Without realising, the holiday is almost over. Seemed like only yesterday when holidays just started. Realised I didn't have a good rest the whole holiday. *Sigh* Super tired. Super tired. Both mentally and physically. When will all these come to an end? Looking forward to the day without work, without studies, without projects....... Will that day ever come?

15th September 2004 Wednesday

Tiring day today. Forgot about a project meeting and went late. Might not even have turned up if my project mate did not call me. Sorry to all my project mates. Luckily my house is near school else I would be dead. Went for GE lessons after that. The GE lessons took a longer time then usual. *Sigh* Tiring day. Guess tomorrow is going to be the same too.

14th September 2004 Tuesday

Another day gone for project. Although not very well done but at least we finished it. That strikes another assignment off my to-do list, leaving many many more remaining. Don't think I am ever going to finish all those stuff in there. *Sigh* But guess I will take a break for what is left of today......

13th September 2004 Monday

Busy day today. Did project for almost the whole day. I guess the coming few days are going to be the same. *Sigh* Tomorrow got two project meetings but they are at the same time and at two different ends of Singapore so guess I could only go for one. *Sigh* Hope I can finish at least one of the projects tomorrow.

Been feeling very empty lately. Lack of an aim in life perhaps. And perhaps a lack of concern and love. *Sigh* I am but human. Difficult as it is, I have to admit reluctantly that I still need concern, love and friends. Sad to say that I am not getting them. I don't even have a friend whom I can call my bosom friend. *Sigh* Am I that hard to understand? *Sigh* Perhaps....... Or maybe just hard to be with.......

11th September 2004 Saturday

September 11th. Hope peace is still reigning around the world. Had a real busy day today. Went to work then tuition. Tired tired tired.

Just finished watching the Channel U idol programme on television. Was back late from tuition so did not catch the first round. Nevertheless, caught the rest of the show. My friend didn't win though I think she did very well indeed. The judges decision a bit weird. Those that I feel good they all kick out. A bit weird weird one. But I feel that the guy who won was quite good too. Congratulations to PZ who guessed the winner correctly though no prize lah......=p

9th September 2004 Thursday

Aargh. Accounting quiz tomorrow and I haven't finish studying yet. But then again define finish studying. Don't think many of us can really say we study finish anything at anytime of the semester right? Yawn. So what is the problem? The problem is I am scared. Heard that the quiz is going to be very tricky. At least that is what I heard. Well. Hope everything will be fine for me tomorrow......

7th September 2004 Tuesday

Just returned from tuitioning. Just had dinner. Dead beat. Had a long day today. Lessons, project, tuition. What is worse is I reckon my next week is going to be worse even though it is my recess week. Whole week has been booked for project. =( Worst still, there is accounting quiz is on Friday. =(

My student has also forgotten a lot of his Maths concepts. Sad. His preliminary examinations is next week. How to improve a person's Maths tremendously in one week? I will see how on Saturday...... Hopefully......

3rd September 2004 Friday

Sick sick sick today. Having cough, cold and a headache. Spent my day sleeping. Just woke up. Feeling slightly better but still groggy from the medicine. Hope it all gets better tomorrow.

E mailed EMI Music yesterday regarding a corrupted CD of theirs and they replied today agreeing to make an exchange for the CD. How nice of them right? Prompt service they offer too. Nice company.

1st September 2004 Wednesday

A new month and I hope, a new beginning. Going to be more hardworking this month. At least I will try. Got a major quiz coming up next week.

Tried to do a bit of my General Elective assignment today. Thought through the whole assignment and wrote a quarter of the assignment. Beginning to enjoy my General Elective. Rather interesting subject and especially so for me since I love chinese songs. =p