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Monday, May 31, 2004

31st May 2004 Monday

Today is a good day for me. Finally got my results back. Finally can take a breather already. Scored not too badly so very happy. =p Nice day for me today. Had a great day with the little kids at work. Formed closer ties with some of them. Super happy today. Think I might not be able to get to sleep tonight. =p

Friday, May 28, 2004

28th May 2004 Friday

Tiring day at work because I didn't slept at all at the chalet I went to yesterday and went to work as usual. It amazes even me how I could still blog at a time like this after almost twenty hours not sleeping.

Chalet was fun except for some unpleasant things which cropped up towards the end of it. Almost gathered the whole picture of the problem from the bits and pieces that I heard but guess I would not mention it here in case the picture that I got is not the real thing which happened. Anyway, guess the problem have killed more than a couple of my friend's brain cell. Take care, YM. For me, quite a sad chalet even if the problem I just mentioned didn't happened. Reason why I will not mention here. Hurts. Hurts. Hurts.

Today went right to her doorstep to get back my Sentosa pass. Could have gotten from her before I left the chalet but she was still sleeping and I feel bad waking her up. Wonder if I would go right up to the person's doorstep to get back the pass if the person wasn't her. Guess that would most likely be a negative. Think I would most probably meet the person somewhere to get the pass. Weird things I seem to be doing. Weird person I am. I don't even understand myself. *Sigh*

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

27th May 2004 Wednesday

Today woked up extra early for a day I am not going to work. Went to my Aunt's house to borrow the Sentosa passes for my classmates. Wonder if I would go the extra trouble if it was someone else who wanted to go to the Dolphin Lagoon and Underwater World.

Actually wanted to accompany them to Sentosa and spend the day there but there wasn't enough space in the car for me. =p But I guess most importantly is I promised my Mum to do some housework so gotta go back to do it. A promise is a promise right? Will be joining them tomorrow. Hope it would be fun even though I would be staying over for only a couple of hours because of work on Friday.

Saw her again. Pretty as ever. As usual, grew quite dumbfounded when she appeared. Never understood why my lips will be sewed whenever she appear. Hope no one noticed that I was extra quiet whenever she is around. Maybe I should change course into Psychological studies and maybe get some idea why such things happen.

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

26th May 2004 Tuesday

Finally finished listening to the Elva CD that I bought. Guess I didn't regret buying the CD. Like quite a couple of songs inside or maybe it is post purchase dissonance. Whichever it is, glad that I quite like the CD.
Still deciding whether I am going for my JC chalet. Will be very tiring for me to go but

I will feel bad about not going as so many people are going. Guess it is rare for a class to remain so close after leaving each other for three years. Dilemma. Anyway, I am gonna borrow passes to Underwater World and Dolphin Lagoon for them despite the trouble I have to take to get the passes. Hope they enjoy themselves.

Aargh....Should I go or not? Can someone tell me? Aargh..... *Pull hair*

Sunday, May 23, 2004

23rd May 2004 Sunday

If sadness was a colour, it would be the colour of my day. If sadness was a sound, it would be what I would sound like. If sadness was in fact anything of substance, it would be what I am made of.

Don't feel like blogging much......Don't feel like seeing anyone. Don't feel like saying anything. Just feel like lying down on my bed and listen to music and forget everything......

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

18th May 2004 Tuesday

Boring day at work. Two more weeks before my results are released. Very scared already. Think I will score badly this semester. Maybe because I have been a lazy lazy boy this semester. But sometimes the results come out better than I expected. Not because I am clever or intelligent or anything like that. I am nothing close to that. It is just...... I don't know how to explain. Aargh. Forget it. Forget about exams and results. Maybe I should just follow my friend and just forget about the results and don't even bother to check them when they are released. Yah. Maybe I will do just that though I think curiousity will make me check it sooner or later and besides I need to know if I failed any of the subjects. *Touch Wood* Hope not.......Anyway, just hope for the best.

Still thinking whether to go for the chalet. If I rush there after work, I could only stay for at most two hours before I have to catch the last train home. Hiaz. Mind boggling, mind boggling. Anyone can give me some advice?

Monday, May 17, 2004

17th May 2004 Monday

Wah. Weather very hot these days. About to melt soon if this carries on. Feels as if the sun has moved closer to Earth. Might crash into Earth soon if superman doesn't stop it. Okie. Must be going crazy. Enough of the crap. Nothing much interesting is happening these days. Went to work as usal today. Did data entry for my boss. A change from teaching small children and marking their papers though I would prefer to do that. No choice. I am not the boss.

Made a new friend on the web. Nice person it seems. Feels good talking to this friend. To more days of friendship...... Still deciding whether to go to Jolin's autograph session and my JC class chalet. Would be able to make it if I had no work. Thinking of whether to take leave for these two event. Mind boggling. Also want to sell off my mp3 player but cannot find anywhere to sell it. Anybody wants a JNC model SSF-31 mp3 player? Price negotiable. Can contact me through my guestbook if anyone does see this. Main reason I don't want it is I find it troublesome to record mp3s from copy control CDs into it through direct coding. So thinking of changing to a discman. The mp3 player is in perfect condition and comes with the accessories as sold outside. In case anyone sees this, I will just leave a website link below on the features of the mp3 player. Click on it to know more and interested parties, please contact me ASAP. Thanks.(For Singaporeans only) Hee......

http://www.jnc-digital.com.au/products/products_info.php?sku=200012&manufacturer=JNC

Thursday, May 13, 2004

13th May 2004 Thursday

Went to Orchard with my University friends yesterday. So sad. Some of them fly our pigeons. Say want to turn up but at the last minute cancel one. Sad. So little people turn up in the end. Had an expensive dinner at Sakae Sushi. Should have gone at lunchtime to eat their buffet which is more worth the money.

Went to watch "Suicide Club" after that. A crazy and absurd film with no ending or maybe I just didn't understand the ending. About Japanese kids committing mass self suicide by jumping onto train tracks, jumping from high buildings and other gruesome ways of dying. Wasted my money on it. Have to blame it on my friend who kept pursuading me to watch. Should have stuck with my decision to watch "Van Helsing".

Had another normal day at work. Couldn't recall having anything interesting happen to me today except that the bus I was on nearly got involved in an accident. Didn't know exactly what happened too. Was sitting at the back and only remembered the driver putting on his emergency braking technique to good use. Hot day. Hope tomorrow the weather will cool down a bit....... *Sweat*

Tuesday, May 11, 2004

11th May 2004 Tuesday

Went to work as usual today. Couldn't believe how mad I was at a small kid who didn't do her homework. Although I didn't show it but was really mad at her. Though the anger subsided very quickly but thinking back, think there is something very wrong with me today. I rarely get mad at anyone. Must be those quarrels around me driving me crazy or maybe that was only an excuse for a really bad tempered me? Who knows? Maybe an outsider could tell better......

Tomorrow doing something new for a change. No work tomorrow. Going out with my University classmates to shop for a friend's present. Hope it would be fun. To tell the truth, I have never felt real close to my University friends. Perhaps I didn't open myself up to them enough. But guess that is the way I am. I just cannot open the real me up to anyone. I never know why and I have given up thinking why. Doubt anyone knows the real me....... Nevertheless, hope I have fun tomorrow......

Monday, May 10, 2004

10th May 2004 Monday

I couldn't believe it. I stayed up yesterday to finish a book I borrowed from the library despite having work today. Nice book. <<天空中飞翔的千纸鹤>>. Nice book. Those of you who haven't read should go and read it. Never did believe the legend that folding a thousand cranes could grant you a wish. However, after reading the book, I was so touched that subconsciously my belief is slightly shaken. Maybe cranes do grant wishes. Maybe I should start making my collection of paper cranes hit the thousand mark. Maybe maybe. Heard a lot of quarrels and conflicts between my parents and relatives today. A bit depressed. Can't everyone think before doing anything? Don't they know that what they do have an impact on not only themselves but the people around them too? Can't they think for themselves if not others? Don't they have a conscience? Hiaz.......

Saturday, May 08, 2004

8th May 2004 Saturday

Just came back from work today. Today very busy because a lot of students as usual on Saturdays but like Saturdays the most too because my favourite student comes on Saturday. Very touched today when she told me I am her favourite tutor in the enrichment centre. Really touched.Cute little girl........Usual work. Busy day. Nothing out of the ordinary happened today.

Tomorrow is Mothers' Day. Hope all the mothers out there will have a great day tomorrow and hope mine will have a marvellous day too........... Happy Mothers' Day......

Friday, May 07, 2004

7th May 2004 Friday

Went out with a couple of my JC classmates to Orchard yesterday. Quite fun to meet up after so long not seeing each other. Had a great time talking crap and realised that I could talk quite well with one of my JC classmate that I never really talked much to in my JC days. Should have opened up more during my JC days. Hiaz......Too late.

Today went to work as usual. Was attached to a kid who nearly made me mad with anger. Couldn't believe how playful and lazy he was. Hiaz...... Why waste your parents' money if you do not intend to gain something out of the enrichment centre? Enrichment centres aren't exactly cheap. But guess small kids are like that. They don't know what is important. Perhaps that's why I forgave the small boy the moment I stepped out of the centre.

SMSed one of my JC classmates that day. As usual, didn't receive any reply from her. Never failed to feel hurt evertime she does that. Never got used to the pain I guess.......Sad sad..... Anyway, don't think so much already. Gotta go wash up and get some rest. Still got work tomorrow. Had a hard time waking up today. Had to literally pluck myself out of my bed. Hope that won't happen again tomorrow.

Wednesday, May 05, 2004

5th May 2004 Wednesday

Today no work. Actually intended to go out with my friends one but woke up at twelve plus and it is raining when I woke up. Feels terrific to laze in bed during rainy days, listening to the rain and doing nothing. Love rainy days. So told my friends to enjoy themselves while I carry on lazing in bed. After lazing for some time and as the rain subsided, I decided to blog so here I am writing on my website again.

Don't know why, as I lazed in bed today some words from a friend of mine just came to mind. My friend was mentioning that he felt a bit useless as his girlfriend was earning more money then he could bring in. I still remembering consoling him that it should not be a problem and he shouldn't feel bad about it nor look down on himself because it isn't something that he could control. However, come to think of it, real easy to say but I think it is real hard not to mind such things right? Male egoism you could call it but guess males do tend to feel inferior if they find their girls more capable then them. Won't you agree? Try putting yourself in the scenario. Guess I better stop before someone labels me as a Male Chauvinist Pig.

Gotta get back to lazing again soon. Been some time since I had a full day to myself. Think it is crucial to leave aside some time everyday to yourself, won't you agree? Guess you could call it recharging or maybe you could call it a reflecting period. As I have told my friend before, for those of you who haven't try it before, try taking ten minutes off your schedule everyday and sit down in a quiet room and reflect on what you have done that day from an outside perspective (as in viewing yourself in others shoes). You will learn more than you can imagine. Try it.

Okie. Gotta go back to bed. Lazy pig huh? Gonna on Jing Ru's songs as I laze in bed. Think it is a real enjoyment to do that........ Zzzzzz

Tuesday, May 04, 2004

4th May 2004 Tuesday

Yesterday the show was not bad. The ending was a bit unexpected and confused me a little. But I guess that is also perhaps the best part of the movie. It sets you thinking unlike other movies where you just go in and accept what you see. Went to eat dinner with my friend at a coffee house after the show. Ate fried rice...... Gross taste........

Went to work today. Didn't want to actually. Wanted to take a break after my exams but boss asked if I am free to help. To prevent losing this part time job that I quite enjoy despite the quite low pay, I had to agree. The best part I like about this job is that I get to see lots of little children and play with them. Though irritating at times, they are quite fun to be with. At least you know they will never habour any evil intentions towards you and you know that they really mean what they say. Most importantly, I see myself as a child. Like that feeling. Feels like the clock is turning backwards instead of forward for once. Ooops. Getting too emotional about it. *Knock myself ~ Wake up!*

Beginning to miss her after only one day of not seeing her. Don't know her and guess she doesn't know me either but have grown used to seeing her from afar. Feels weird not to see her even for one day. Hate myself for lacking the courage to even go up and say hi......... Sad sad.........

Monday, May 03, 2004

3rd May 2004 Monday

Finally have a webspace of my own. Never in my wildest dreams have I imagined that I will be talking to a computer one day like what I am doing now. Have never kept a diary nor blogged anywhere on the net before so I don't understand what is making me set up a blog stand on my home page. Guess it must be the exam stress acting on me or maybe some subconscious reason which I can't point out.

Had my final paper of Year 1 Semester 2 today. Marketing paper. Came out with the feeling that I would have written exactly the same things even if I did not went through the textbook or even the whole course. Stupid MTV Asia Awards question. Guess I will do badly but nothing is confirmed till the results are out in black and white right? So now I guess I would just relax myself in anticipation of the results.

Going to watch the movie "江 湖" tonight. Won the tickets by dialing into 933 the day before during Xiao Bin's period. Thanks Xiao Bin! Though it is not the first time that I have won something by dialing into 933, still super excited. =p Hope the show tonight will be nice...... Hope I will see my favourite DJ, Ling Zhi there too. Love her Music Diary. So sad she didn't win any prize in the Golden Mike Awards. Nevertheless, she will always be the best in my heart. Yawn..... Sleepy. Studied Marketing till 1 a.m. last night. Guess I will take a tiny nap before I go for the movie...... Zzzz