26th July 2008 Saturday

好久好久没在这里写下自己的心情了。或许随着工作量的增加，心情变淡了吧。又或许渐渐的，习惯将自己封闭，把心情收在心里。又或许如好久以前，一位朋友所说，我从来都不曾把自己真实的心情诉说出来吧。是这样吗？我不知道。或许我根本就不了解自己。当一个不了解自己的人渴望得到别人的了解，唯一的结局是无解和失望。这样矛盾吗？或许吧。但回想起来，诉说或不诉说重要吗？或许这对於被误解的自己是最重要的吧。但当你不再渴望别人的谅解，当你不再奢望任何人会停下脚步注意停滞不前的自己，当你不再需要任何人，或许重要性也会随着变质。那还是重要的。只不过它不再是那么的不可缺的。它不再随着每一次的失望牵痛心弦。它也将不会再成为心里的负担，让自己因为获不得的理解而难受，难过。

我这样说，你会理解吗？

11th July 2008 Friday

I totally understand how it feels to want to talk to someone so badly and how it feels when you scroll through your contact list and don't seem to be able to find anyone suitable to talk to. And I totally understand how it feels when such a situation occurs all the time. This happens to me too.

And I understand how tears make us fall easily. But did you know that with every tear that falls, it forms a rainbow in the next dawn, giving the promise of a better tomorrow and a stronger us. Tears are not a sign of weakness. It is just a process of strengthening ourselves in preparation of a better tomorrow. Contradictory, it hurts the most when tears refuse to flow...

1st July 2008 Tuesday

预想的结局。但并没有因为已经预料到而改变心情。心情糟透了。你，能安慰我吗？