24 February 2007 Saturday

You think you know me? Think again. I don't even know myself.
You think you know yourself? Think again. Sometimes you don't know why you did some things.
You think you know the world. Think again. Sometimes you feel out of place didn't you?
Me, yourself and the world. Which do you know better? I do not know.
But you don't know me.
Because you have never known me.
Because I have never lived as me.
Because I was not me.
Because I am still trying to know me.
Because I am still trying to be me.
Because I was never me.

Have you ever felt so sad that you locked yourself in a world of your own, and became used to being all alone? Have you ever felt that you needed nobody else in your world? Have you ever felt that perhaps you could really be an island and be happy? Have you ever felt that no one ever knew you? Not even yourself?

24th February 2007 Saturday

Happy Chinese New Year to all those who are still active around here. Have a great year ahead. Considering that it is New Year, peppermintgreentea have been doing a little of thinking here and there. Like what goals to set for this year and stuff and as usual come up with more questions than answers. Well, in the first place, what is the ultimate goal of life? If we are never going to understand or define that ourselves, we will never ever come up with meaningful goals whatsoever. In lieu of the spate of resignation tendered by fellow colleagues, peppermintgreentea has been thinking - what do I really want in life? Money? Friends? Life? Or what? That was when peppermintgreentea realised that he is really pathetic because even he doesn't know what he wants for himself or what does he really enjoy for that matter. And I guess he is not alone ain't it? We have set goals for ourselves when we were young and many of us really put in a lot of effort to work towards these goals. But along the way, somehow many of us also forgets what we are really working for. So much so that along the way, we totally lost our sense of direction and just adopted the life that we have always been leading. Some of us have even forgotten the passion that goaded us on in the very beginning. Ain't it? Those of you reading this, take a break and consider. Do you really remember what you have always wanted and have been working so hard for? Is it what you really wanted now? Or are you just living life from day to day just because you have been living so for so long? Just look at the world around us. Everyone is rushing from one place to another, doing one thing after another each and every second of life. Do anyone really know the purpose of doing them? Or have they gone from being pushed by passion to blindly following a routine? Or are they really doing these things just because everyone in the society seems to be doing such things or because these things seem right? Let me give you an example. Initially, being vegetarian was goaded by a respect and mercy for life. How many vegetarians these days are really vegetarians because of a respect and mercy for life? Not to mention that some vegetarians find it a chore to do them because of religious purposes. Isn't that a loss of the very purpose of doing the thing itself? Or look at those donations that people have been giving. Are they really doing so out of pity? Or out of a mind to help those in need? Anyone got the answer? Well, I guess that is up to the individual to judge.

On a happier note, me finally bought SHE's concert DVD after much consideration. I think their live singing really improved by leaps and bounds. And I loved many of the songs that were inside the CD as well as the performances inside. Hebe was great with her drum solo and her solo of "She's the One". Wonder how she does that twirling of the drumsticks. Amazing. Ella's voice is as strong and steady as ever. And Selina was great with her rapport with the audience. And I really loved the cantonese song - Qing Ren that they sang. Really nice effect when the audience sang along with them. Could literally feel the excitement in the live concert at Hong Kong. Guess we don't get too many audiences who let their hair down and go all the way in enjoying themselves in concerts over at Singapore. Always felt that Singapore audience aren't as "high" as the Taiwanese and Hong Kong audiences. Well, again, up to the individual to judge. Well, that's about all I guess. Till the next time~

I was her she was me
We were one we were free
And if there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

We were young we were wrong
We were fine all along
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

When you get to where you wanna go
And you know the things you wanna know
You're smiling
When you said what you wanna say And you know the way you wanna play, yeah
You'll be so high you'll be flying

Though the sea will be strong
I know we'll carry on
'Cos if there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

When you get to where you wanna go
And you know the things you wanna know
You're smiling
When you said what you wanna say And you know the way you wanna say it
You'll be so high you'll be flying

I was her she was me
We were one we were free
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
Yeah she's the one
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
She's the one
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
She's the one
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
She's the one..

~(She's the One)---Hebe (OT: Robbie Williams)~

5th February 2007 Monday

幸福在长长人生中只是一个小小的段落
也许只存在大城市中的小小角落
每个人的心中 都有着对幸福不同的解读
但都在心中为渴望的幸福预约了位置

一个盼望了很久的LV一球可口的HagenDazs冰淇淋
周末午后的一杯Starbucks加上一张喜欢的CD
玩爱玩的PS2游乐器窝在沙发上吃着爆米花看电影
入睡前情人的拥抱醒来时看见阳光的美好
幸福像是遥不可及却又垂手可得

~取于张玉华<<小小幸福>>专辑~

1 February 2007 Thursday

Been a full month since I last blogged. Not that I have been so busy to the extent that I can't find any time to blog. But that doesn't mean I am slacking my time away at home. Been busy with work and spring cleaning. Not to mention that my internet hours are so limited. Been considering taking up Singtel's MIO package. Seems really attractive. Well, I still have till March to consider since my mobile phone plan ends in March. Well, just some updates about what I have been up to in case you guys think I am dead. Well, if anyone even bothers to think about what I am up to that is. Hello~ Anyone still alive around here beside dying me? Anyway, so what have I been busy with? Hey, are you deaf? Didn't I just say I was busy with work and spring cleaning? Hee. Just kidding. Seems like I have developed a weird habit of talking to myself huh? Split personality? Nah. That is what you get when you close up and stick to yourself too often. But well, besides work, my life hasn't been too boring. Been watching loads of show. Just picked up the habit of watching the Saturdays and Sundays drama serials on Channel 8 and Channel U. And I guess that takes up half my Saturdays and most of my Sundays. That aside, have discovered a couple more things that succeeded in getting me more than remotely interested. Just discovered a really nice magazine - Young Generation. Think it is really nice. But don't think it is suitable for those of you who hate chinese as it is fully in chinese with loads of chinese words. Much more than you I and U Magazine. But I really loved it. Too bad it is based in Malaysia and it is rather hard to find it around in Singapore. Chanced upon it while I was looking around in your beloved 24 hours 7-11. Wonder if they sell every issue of it or maybe just import it as and when they like. Shall look around in the shops in two weeks time to see if they have the next issue. Hmm. What else. Oh, and I must mention that I am beginning to like Dawn Yeo more and more. Been managing to catch a glimpse of the drama serial - The Highest Point since the client I am auditing these days is based in Jurong and we can't stay too late lest we die of hunger as there is no food in the vicinity at night. Have liked her since she acted as the blind girl in a drama serial which name I have forgotten some time ago. Think she is really brilliant and photogenic. Who agrees with me? Hey~ Hello~ Anyone around. Me Me Me Me! Yawn. Think I have had enough of such split personality jokes. Till the next time.

1 February 2007 Thursday

It isn't about how long you live but how well you lived.
It isn't about how good you look but how good you are.
It isn't about how capable you are but how hard you try.
It isn't about how well you talk but how much you know.
It isn't about how much love you get but how much you loved.
It isn't about saying something wrong but whether you tried saying.
It isn't about how angry you are but how long you remain angry.
It isn't about the friends you have but how much they understand you.
It isn't about how many stars there are in the sky but how brightly they shine.
It isn't about how much you got but how much people are willing to share with you.
It isn't about how many gifts you receive but how much blessings come with the gifts.
It isn't about how much kindness you show but how much of it comes from your heart.
It isn't about how much you believed but how much you stuck to what you believed.
It isn't about me but about you.

Looking back, have you wondered how long you have focused on all those things that are seemingly important but are actually not?