从小就听着童话故事长大。心里一直认为只要如童话的主角那般，人好，孝顺又单纯便一定会找到最后的幸福。一直抱着这样一个完美的世界的憧憬渐渐成长。即使在成长的过程中赫然发现真正的世界并不如想象中那般，我仍然坚信着自己的信念，相信好的人必定会有好的结局，相信童话是存在的，相信童话并不是梦。二十二年后的今天，我的信念动摇了。原来世界比我想象的更为不公平，更为不完美。原来童话只是个对於一个应有的世界的梦。原来童话并不存在也永远不会存在与这个世界上。原来童话只不过是个童话。原来即使再努力，我也无法碰到童话里完美的结局。我放弃了童话，放弃了我的梦，放弃了我的世界，放弃了我的所有。。。。。。
A lot of people have been asking me why do I like Hermione so? Think it is about time I clarified. Most of my friends thought I like her because the actress that is playing her role is cute and pretty. I must admit that Emma Watson (the actress playing the role of Hermione in the Harry Potter films by Warner Brothers) is indeed real cute when she was young and pretty as she matures but my liking for Hermione started not because of her but because of what JK Rowling (the author of the Harry Potter series) said in one of her interviews. She said:
I am like an open can, full of money, placed in a dark corner, with a note - "Contribution will be appreciated".
I saw you through the door.
有些回忆只能淋着雨
I tried building a sanctuary for myself. But I have built a jail instead. With walls so high that I can't climb and none could penetrate. With no windows that I could look out of and none could look in at. At a place so dark that I could not see ahead of me. With a temperature so cold that I could not feel. With silence so deep that I could not breathe. With me so alone that I could not cry.
爱是当你在我的身边，世界仿佛变成了我们同在的屋檐下。
Promises aren't worth as much as they used to in the past. Recall the marriage vow that so many couples made and the rising divorce rate and you would know. What is your view of promises? My view is.... "Never make them if you are unable or do not intend to keep them".
Was reminded of one of my sister's little weird question when she was young. Thought it was stupid then but it kind of intrigued me a little today. She asked "Why do we have to study? Study so much also have to die. Die with or without knowledge also the same. So why study?". Thought it was stupid then and simply replied her "Because if we study hard, we can get a good job, earn a lot of money and lead a better and happier life." Guess what she replied me? She said "What if we die after studying so hard and before we even got a job? What if we can't get a good job despite studying so hard." Don't think I answered her then. Dismissed it as some sort of freak question that isn't worth my attention.
What is important is not who you have to share our happiness with. What is important is who you have to share our sadness with. Who will be the one standing by you when you have nothing but yourself?
I rarely post twice on my blog on the same day. But after reading a line on my friend's description in her friendster account, I couldn't resist the temptation to start another post and share what she wrote. She wrote:
I seem to be losing the focus of my life with every passing day. Just realised that I have been living life day to day, routinely with absolutely no idea why I am doing this? What am I aiming for? What am I doing this for? What is my final destination? Whenever I pause to think about these questions, fear starts to grip me as I realise that I am unable to even answer these basic questions. I mean everyone should have a goal to work for as a form of motivation in life. Even organizational studies teaches us that goals acts as a form of direction and motivation for employees. So what? Am I losing my direction in life? Well, come to think of it. You can't lose something that you have never had in your possession before? If my life has lost its direction, what was its initial direction before it was lost? I couldn't even answer that. It seems as though my life has been fixed since the day I was born and I am merely walking a route that has been mapped out for me. Aimlessly. Lifelessly. Accepting whatever that comes along the way, good or bad. Is this the way I want to go in life? If not, should I try branching off the main road? But what if I don't like the side road? What if once I branched out, I lose my way and never meet up the main road again? But if I stick to the main road, what will be my destination? Should I just wait and see what is at the end? Am I alone on this road? Why do I feel so alone?
卖着火柴的小女孩独自在街角亮着一根又一根的火柴。火光照耀下的她心里到底是什么样的一种感受？是怨恨？怨恨这个冷酷的世界？是自怜？可怜着自己冻僵了的身躯？是喜悦？欢喜至少有火柴微弱的光陪着她？是伤心？为着孤寂的自己而伤心？我想大概都有一些吧。。。。。。
You can't get hurt by something that you don't know......
They say that your true friends show you who you really are. But how do they do that if you have never shown them who you really are?
How is it that it only takes a second to fall in love with someone but a whole lifetime to forget someone you love?
Reached school rather early in the morning today. It was early despite the fact that I have eight thrity classes. On my way to class, I brushed across an old man sweeping the dead leaves off the floor. Spent a little time observing him subconsciously since I was early and the amount of dead leaves that have covered the floor since the last time I saw it simply astonished me. I have never really taken notice of dead leaves covering the floor but I don't recall any scenes of leave littered school floors as I searched my memory. Of course leaves do fall and cover the floor everyday. Hence, it simply amazed me as I have never really thought of how the school floors remain relatively clean throughout my University days. Well, you could say I took it for granted. Reflecting back, it just dawned on me the tremendous amount of things we have always taken for granted. The roads along Orchard seem to decorate themselves with every passing festival. Hotel toilets seem to clean themselves with every use. Rubbish chutes seem to empty themselves even before they become full. Leaves seem to lift themselves off the floor and disappear after everyday. Even the meals that your Mum cook. Ever pause to appreciate how they always turn up whenever you are hungry? The sun that never fails to rise everyday. The rains that keep the temperature and humidity under control. The stars that offer lost travellers with directions. The shooting star that you wished upon. How about the rainbow that you have always loved? And a whole lot more things that we have always took for granted because they seem so insignificant.
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