31 August 2006 Thursday

Realised that I haven't been updating my blog regularly ever since I started work. Guess it has a lot to do with the fact that now that I am spending most of my daytime working and nighttime sleeping, I really can't find too much interesting things to blog about. Anyway, been watching the anime <> these days. Rather short anime and took me about two nights to finish it. Some might have considered two nights a rather long time to finish that anime because it is only thirteen episodes. Anyway, I rather liked that anime though some might find it too kiddish for my age. Well, let me end this post by sharing a few lines that I really liked from that anime...

This world is full of things that weren't meant to be. Do you plan to run away from a reality that wasn't meant to be? Or face up to it? It is your choice.

The thing you want the most when you are feeling alone and sad isn't to hear "Everything's all right" or the kindess of others, but rather...

23rd Aug 2006 Wednesday

Heard from somewhere quite some time back that Singapore has been rated as one of the most unhappiest and uncourteous country in the world. Incidentally, Singaporeans also lead one of the fastest pace of life in the world. That sort of made me wonder. Could the two be somewhat linked? But I have always thought that a fast pace of life should lead to economic growth and prosperity, leading to a better life for each and everyone of us which leads to happiness. Isn't that so? But those two ratings seem to hint that it might very much be the other way round. Or perhaps the economic wealth that we enjoy from our labor isn't enough to compensate the amount of work that we put in and the amount of stress we suffer? But if unhappiness was the result of our labor, what value do our labor hold?

Perhaps we are so indulged in work that our work life has gradually become but a game of wealth accumulation, so much so that we forgot that what is most important is not only wealth, but really, happiness......

20th August 2006

To cause trouble for someone is very painful....

20th August 2006 Sunday

Been on job the last few days and guessed I haven't really gotten used to doing jobs yet. Kept making careless mistakes here and there, like missing out a date here and missing out a number there. Hee. Hope I did not bring too much trouble to my AIC and also hope I learn to be more careful in future. Hee. But I got to comment that I am starting to think that security guards at companies are just a form of formality. I mean what is the point of having them if you can get through to the company without them knowing. Hee. Or maybe mine is just an isolated incident that could be due to the "All humans make mistakes" reason. Well, I don't know.

Also had my mentor outing yesterday. Didn't really have full strength attendance but I guess attendance was already very good considering that the location is at Pulau Ubin. Well, learned a couple more things about Ubin as well as my mentor group people during the outing. Also found that it is really cheap to cycle on Ubin. The bicycle rental rates are all for a full day! I also have to mention that it was also the first time in my life that I saw a wild boar! Anyway, hope my mentor group people found it fun too.

12th August 2006 Saturday

Seems like I haven't been updating my blog often these days. Okie. It does not only seem like. It is a fact that I haven't been updating my blog often these days. Hmm. Guess I will just give a brief update of what has been happening to me these days. Went for a Seventh Month dinner on National Day night held at a HDB void deck. The food was not bad but the emcee for the auctioning session had a really lousy command of language. I didn't mean to make fun of him but I don't understand why he had to mix a variety of different languages whenever he made his statements. From what I see, he is perfectly capable of bringing across his statements in one consistent language. But he just loves to mix. Or maybe he finds it funny. Well, we found it rather funny. In fact, we were really impressed by the way he mixes the languages. It ain't easy to mix three different languages in a simple sentence that perhaps consists of about five words.

As for work, I am starting to find it sort of routinized. This is more so as my first official job got postponed back another month. So most of the days, I spent my time doing office work back in office. Well, I am not really complaining as I don't really have to work too late under such circumstances. Hmm. Well, with the word "routine", it means that there really isn't much to update about work so we shall skip to the next topic. But seeing as I don't really have a next topic to talk about. We shall end here. I also don't really know what to update anymore. Perhaps, if anyone wants to know anything, just tag me. Will tell you all if I know the thing that you all want to know. Hee.

6th August 2006 Sunday

I wanted to say that I didn't care.
But would saying make any difference?
I wanted to say that I wasn't what you made me out to be.
But would saying change your opinion?
I wanted to say that I am sorry.
But would saying stop me from committing the same mistake again?
I wanted to say thanks.
But would saying so signify that you will leave me forever?
I wanted to say that I am hurt.
But would saying ease the searing scar in my heart?
I wanted to say that I am contented with memories.
But would saying stop me yearning for more?
I wanted to say that I want the truth straight in the face.
But perhaps I already knew the truth.
I wanted to say.
But do words really matter these days?
I wanted to say.
But would anyone want to listen?

Sometimes, some words are best buried somewhere that only you and you yourself can find.
Sometimes, some words are better left unsaid.
Sometimes, some words are better forgotten.
Sometimes, some words are better taken along with us when we leave the world.
Sometimes and sometimes, words are but words.
Maybe we shouldn't take them too seriously.
Maybe we shouldn't have taken anything seriously......