27th November 2005 Sunday

It is amazing how time flies when it is the weekends and how time crawls when you are working ain't it? Before I knew it, two days of the first weekend of my Professional Attachment has almost flew by me. It will be back to the mundane work again tomorrow. Well, maybe with one exception. Strictly speaking, tomorrow will be a half day work for me as I will be going for an interview at Ernst and Young in the morning. Hope I don't appear too blur and stupid in front of the interviewer. I tend to always do that whenever I have interviews. Guess I am just not used to such fake formalities. Well, work aside, let's talk about something more interesting. Hmm. Well, at least interesting in my personal opinion. I was passing by a CD shop today when I saw S.H.E's new album. The cover looks interesting with the three of them made up like dolls. They do really look like life sized dolls with that extra thick mascara and dollish clothes. Was kinda tempted to buy them but hesitated as I wasn't really sure that the album was worth a buy. I had only sampled a song from that album. Though it was not bad, it wasn't reason enough to be spending $17.90 for that album. So I decided I shall check out more about that album before deciding. Anyone bought that album can leave me some advice on my tagboard or leave a comment on this post. Any advice will be appreciated. =p

25th November 2005 Friday

Spent my birthday searching high and low for invoices as part of my vouching job. First time seeing so many invoices in my life. Anyway, let's not talk about work after almost a whole day at work. Want to spend the remaining of today's post thanking all my friends. Let's first thank LS, YM, CF and XL for the nice nice steamboat dinner and cake yesterday. Next, I would also like to thank cy who sent me a card, yiling who left a birthday wish sort of testimonial for me on friendster, my sister who went to buy stingray for my dinner today, my mum who gave me a red packet, Eng Soon who was the first to wish me happy birthday on the dot through two channels and last but not least, Er Jie who specially stayed online till midnight last night to wish me happy birthday and the electronic card that she sent me. Thanks for everything, everyone. Really appreciated them. =p

22nd November 2005 Tuesday

Simply love the weather these days. Just the cold that I love. I do not mean those kind of cold that you get under the air condition in office environment. I meant the natural cold which is the result of the constant rain these days. Simply love the smell of the rain and the cold wind blowing against my face.

Started my professional attachment yesterday. Went for an orientation tour in the morning and commenced the self studying of the software manuals in the afternoon. Since then, we have been dilligently studying our software manuals and trying out our tests. Tomorrow will be the last day before we are rid of those studying (well, at least I hope. But I heard we might be required to read the International Financial Reporting Standards as well.) and are assigned to our mentor groups. It also marks the last day before all the interns get splitted up into different groups. That is a little sad and scary because most of us will be alone. But I sure hope it will be fun after this period of mundane studying. Anyway, just received news yesterday that my job application to PWC got rejected. I am not even granted an interview. So sad. Why don't they want me? I guess they don't accept scums. Hmm. But I don't think I should dwell on it that much as I have already made up my mind since a long time ago that if I had to choose one of the big four auditing firms, my choice will be Deloitte. That is also the precise reason why I chose Deloitte for my Professional Attachment firm. So I guess I don't really have much to complain or to be sad about. That is unless Deloitte doesn't give me a job offer.

Hmm. Nothing else to write so I am off to enjoy the cold cold weather that we rarely get over here at Singapore. =p

20th November 2005 Sunday

Spent a lonely but fun Saturday night. Well, strictly speaking, it should be the wee hours of Sunday morning. Went to watch the fourth episode of Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire all by myself at Jurong Point. Caught the 12.40 am show. Been ages since I last watched a midnight show and this marks the first time that I am catching one all by myself. I guess the movie was alright although not as good as what I expected. And I guess the newspaper was right to say that the plot was moving too fast for comfort. I seriously wonder if you will understand half of the movie if you had not read the book. And there are definitely quite a couple of spoilers in the movie. When did Dumbledore become ever so fierce? He was supposed to be super calm from what I remember. And when did Hermione go gaga after dancing with Viktor Krum (I hate this part especially. So un-Hermione-ish! She is supposed to be indifferent towards Viktor and not behave as if she belonged to his personal fanclub!)? And the part about Barty Crouch Junior wasn't really elaborated very well. Barty Crouch was supposed to be under the Imperius Curse all this time and he was supposed to break away from it long enough to at least warn Harry that something really serious was going on. And when did Harry know that Viktor was under the Imperius curse when Viktor fought Diggory? And quoting Xiaxue, when did the dragon take Harry on a tour around Hogwarts? I guess you could add more important details into the film by taking such unnecessary parts of the film away. Well, personally I would rate this film a 3 out of 5. And a personal advice will be to do some background research into the book if you really intend to watch it to prevent getting lost halfway.

19th November 2005 Saturday

I just hate it when my mum goes nagging at me about the high electricity bill just because I kept the computer on a little longer. Can't I just take some time to stone in front of the computer after my exams? Can't I just take a break by playing some games in front of the computer just before my attachment? Moreover, I have already finished all the household chores assigned to me despite not feeling like doing so. I only have 2.5 days to rest before starting work yet again you know? Does my life still belong to me? Does it? Can I just be rebellious for once? Can I revolt for once? Or am I being too unreasonable? I don't know. I really don't know. But then, since when have I known anything in your eyes? Since when did my views matter?

18th November 2005 Friday

I think it makes more sense to say that the semester has officially come to an end now that we have seen the last of those dreadful exam papers. I will not mention how disastrous this semester has been as all of you out there will probably have some idea of it already. I will not complain more about the exam papers as we have already handed them up and further complaining will do nothing to salvage the situation. I have decided to accept whatever fate has in store for me. Well, at least I hope I will learn to accept. Decided to blog about something happier today.

The fourth Harry Potter film is finally out after much anticipation. Although I did not manage to catch it the day of the initial screen due to exams, I will definitely try to watch it as soon as possible. This means either tomorrow or the day after before I start on my attachment. Now to get some rest. Hee. Blog more some other time.
(PS: Congratulations to all who have finished the exams. Play hard. For those who are still mugging for their last papers, study hard. Look forward to the end of the papers and the plans that you have after that. That will kind of motivate you as you go along.)

13th November 2005 Sunday

你以为最酸的感觉是吃醋吗？
不是的，最酸溜溜的感觉是没权吃醋。
根本就轮不到你吃醋，那是最酸最酸的。
呢暗恋的那个人你能吃她的醋吗？眼看着她和情人甜甜蜜蜜，眼看着她对其他人好，你就是没有资格吃醋。你的喉咙，酸得有点儿冒出泡沫来。
你喜欢那个人，她也知道，但她不喜欢你。她跟谁来往，跟谁恋爱，也轮不到你吃醋。她对某人特别好，你恨得牙痒痒，好想走到她面前，质问她：
你干吗跟他这样好？
然而你是谁？
即使望着她和他手牵手，她替他整理衣服的领口，甚至坐在他的大腿上，你也无权说些什么，你只能在心里恨他。
旧情人的醋，你也无权再吃。大家已经分手了，她跟谁在一起，不关你的事。她说过会永远怀念你，永远保护你，那又怎样？她可没说过永远不爱其他人。
她有了新的对象，他投入一段新恋情，你从没见过她对一个人这么好。
你想跟她说：“我讨厌你跟他在一起！”但你们不是已经分手了吗？吃醋也要讲名分。
吃不到的醋是最酸的。很想吃你的醋，但我是你什么人呢？

~<<吃不到的醋>>---张小娴~

11th Novemeber 2005 Friday

I guess I must really write off my engine already. It is definitely seriously impaired. It has satisfied the definition of impairment and hence an impairment loss must definitely be recognized during this financial period. My engine used to be able to concentrate through hours of sifting through of the textbook in the past. Now, it hangs whenever I try to read beyond four consecutive pages of the textbook. Not to mention the occasional headcahes that hit me now and then. Tell me if my engine isn't impaired. Or maybe it just isn't given sufficient oil? Haiz. I don't know. I just know that I seem to have lost interest in studying. Well, that is upon the assumption that there was interest to start with. Was there? Don't ask me. I don't know. I don't even know why I chose accountancy as my choice of a course.

In a sense, I guess I have never known what I wanted in life. That is probably why I hesitated that much when a friend asked me what have I been chasing after in life? That question aside, I guess I probably don't even know how to answer if someone asked me what my hobbies are. Do I really have one? Well, I don't know. I just know that I probably lost my goal in life somewhere along life's journey. On another note, are the things that I am supposed to be chasing after now really the things that I want in life? Or am I just following the crowd in chasing after those things? Do I really want to be remembered as the one who scored As and outrun the crowd in the quest to an excellent honours? I don't know. I really don't know.

10th November 2005 Thursday

Do you believe that love and concern could overpower hatred and revenge? Well, think about the first messages that were sent the moment an Earthquake occurs, the moment the plane hit the twin towers, the moment the bomb blew off in Bali. Were they messages of hate and revenge? No. They weren't. They were messages of love and concern.

Who do you think of first the moment something bad happens? Who would you think of first the moment the plane hit the twin towers if you happen to be on board the hijacked plane? Who would you think of first if you were on the verge of death? Who would you miss the most after you leave life? Who would you spend the day with if you knew the day was going to be your last? Whose shoulders would you choose to cry on if you had the urge to cry? Will it be me?

8th November 2005 Tuesday

I never ever thought that I would feel that bad after a Maths paper ever since the Additional Maths paper that I took in Secondary three. But I guess when things are at their worst, it will not get better but could still go worse. I am so going to die for my prescribed elective exam that I just took today. The paper being extremely difficult as compared to the previous two semesters aside, I made a whole lot of careless mistakes. I know I could have done better, at least for those careless mistakes. But I just don't know what the hell is wrong with me today. On hindsight, how could I have made those mistakes? That is precisely what I hate - having to live through the aftermath of an exam knowing that I could have done better. What can I say? I guess no words could describe the amount of disappointment in me now. And I still have two more papers to go. Sigh~~~
(PS: To those who have faith in me: Sorry but I think I am going to disappoint you all this semester.)

6th November 2005 Sunday

I am so going to die this semester. I know I am never ever going to have enough time to finish all those revisions before the exams and yet I simply don't have the mood to even try. I guess my engine must have been seriously impaired as a result of four semesters of heavy usage. Maybe I should recognize an impairment loss on it. Or should I just write it off? Well, in my opinion, I should, since it is fully depreciated with no salvage value. I am mad. What am I thinking? Or am I doing any thinking at all for that matter. Must be the lack of my yearly dosage of Jing Ru. Missed her autograph session yesterday. *Sobz* Forgive me. I am mad.
(PS: To all those reading this post: Sorry for the amount of crap in this post;
To Cinder: Thanks again for the SMS yesterday. Was kinda touched by it.)

5th November 2005 Saturday

难道我连任性的权力都没有吗？
把自己反锁在心里，不让任何人进入。
练就了自卫的能力，让人无法猜想我的思想。
这样好吗？

4th November 2005 Friday

Just had one of my worst papers in my University life today. Worst as in not that the paper is extremely difficult but rather that I don't see how what we have learnt in the course helps in answering the exam questions. Well, maybe it did help a little. Helped in answering about five to ten percent of the entire paper I guess. But the point is, from what I see, crapping is perhaps the only way to do the paper. Wonder if it is me that is stupid or the paper that is dumb. Well, I think since it is over, I would not brood on it. On hindsight, guess what was the fact that irritated me the most? The fact that I gave up the chance of going to a mini concert by Jing Ru yesterday to study for today's paper and I don't see how that one day of work has paid off. Maddening mad. Aargh. I want a replay of that concert again! *Sobz*

No one singer has touched me with his/her songs and sincerity like Jing Ru did. I think it is the amount of feelings she puts into her songs as well as the sincerity of her actions that really drew me to her. Those of you who have yet to hear Jing Ru's songs should really try it. You will love it! And if any of you happen to hate her (which I hope not), please take this post with a pinch of salt and don't come brainwashing me because it won't work. Hee.