28th January 2006 Saturday

今天终於在电视上看到了郭美美的真面目。在她还未露面之前，我就觉得她的歌声挺不错的。但是就是觉得她一直翻唱别人的歌，很没有自己的风格，有点讨厌。我觉得若她能唱一唱较深情的，又属於自己的歌曲，我应该会挺喜欢她的。忘了是谁跟我说郭美美难看的。但我觉得不会啊。虽然不能说超级美丽，但很可爱啊。更何况她又是本地人。要支持！

在此祝愿大家新年快乐，心想事成，天天开心。要开心哟。因为开心是世界上最重要的东西。笑口常开。

28th January 2006 Saturday

Tears are not a sign of weakness. They are a sign that you care......

27th January 2006 Friday

So happy today. Finally managed to finish my auditing report. Though not as well done as I was hoping it would be, I couldn't be bothered further. I feel that I have put in enough effort for it, considering that I stayed in school the entire day to do it. Two days before Chinese New Year k? Hee. And special thanks to Dino who helped us for the report. Oh, and special thanks to crying angel too for offering to help! I know I meant it quite jokingly when I said I was touched. But hey, I really am k? =p Yeah. Finally I can enjoy my long deserved break this Chinese New Year. =)

26th January 2006 Thursday

If there is anything that I love about today, it will be the nice cold morning. I really thought that I had awakened in Genting and not Singapore when I awoke this morning. This is one of those rare times in Singapore that you can feel really cold wind when it is not raining. I simply love that feeling. Besides that, I wouldn't grade today as a really good day. Mundane lessons and project report writing. And absolute thanks to one of my module tutor who made me feel so incompetent who so accidentally displayed all the group scores for the various class activities that took place in the past week. Just realised that my group's score is near to accompanying me at rock bottom. Gosh. I feel like a Saggitarian without my bow and arrow. I even feel that I am losing my stead along with those weapons. And I don't think I will be getting them back really soon. Incompetent me. Sad me. Lousy me. And I still don't really know how to do that dumb auditing module report. I hope it rains tonight......

The rain distracts my attention. The rain makes me sad. The rain makes me miss a certain someone. The rain makes me want to be indoors. The rain makes me yearn for a cup of warm coffee. The rain makes me cold. The rain...The rain....The rain...The rain...The rain....

26th January 2006 Thursday

It is only the second week of school and the entire world has gone wrong. Endless readings. Spoilt computer monitor. Call centres that re direct my call to everyone and the whole world but the right department. Tutor who tries to be unique and violates the norm by assigning groups instead of letting us choose our own groups. Project report to be handed up right after Chinese New Year when we haven't learnt much from the module. The person that I want to be online is not online. What else can go wrong? I just realised that things seriously don't get better when you are at rock bottom. When it can't get worse doesn't mean it will get better. It can always stay there. There at rock bottom......

24th January 2006 Tuesday

Just reached home from watching "In Her Shoes". And yes, I am sorry for dismissing it as a girlish movie and removing it from my "To see" list earlier on. I was glad that I listened to Avarian's advice and watched it. Similar to Avarian, I found the show rather meaningful and some of the parts kinda touching. Made me ponder a little, pondering about leading a life that I have never tried before. Trying to be in someone else's shoes. Pondering about life from a different perspective, one that is not my own. Something like watching life from outside one's body. Sounds profound? Well, it was to me. Made me think that perhaps the views on life that I had always thought to be the right views might not actually be as right as it seemed. Perhaps there wasn't a right view? Maybe just how you see it and from what angle you see it from? Well, that is for me and you to wonder as part of our day's reflections.

How many times have you forgiven someone that has hurt you so deeply just because you just can't bear to hate that single person?

21st January 2006 Saturday

我不喜欢住进自己所编织的美梦里。因为梦始终是梦，而不是现实。但，不由自主地，我却时常住进如此的海市蜃楼里。或许这就是所谓的事与愿违吧。。。。。。

20th January 2006 Friday

Was chatting with a friend last night when she touched on a topic that got me thinking. She was saying how so many a time, we say things because it was appropriate to do so at that time and at that place and not because we really do mean it. Consider:

How many times have you said "See you" with a mind to really make an effort to see the person again?
How many times have you said "Keep in touch" with a mind to really make an effort to keep in contact with the person?
How many times have you said "Sorry" with a mind never to do it to him/her ever again?
How many times have you said "I promise" only to break it the next moment?
How many times have you said "I will never leave" only to leave him/her alone in the end?

Do we really understand the significance of our words before we let it out of our mouths? Have we ever seriously considered how others will be affected by our words before we let it out of our mouths? Have we ever tried making sure that we really do mean what we say before we let it out of our mouths?

We have always lamented about being hurt by the words of others but have we ourselves ever really made an effort not to become the person that hurts others with our words? Words are so simple and yet so powerful......

19th January 2006 Thursday

天空中所有的星座里，
我只认得猎户座，
因为教我忍的人，
是你。

旖旎梦境中，仿佛传来你的细语呢喃，你轻轻诉说着，在那云润星晖的夜里，你坐拥昊天繁星的欢愉；我搂着你微笑，要你也带着我，感受这片银色苍穹的昱昱光辉，你的眼神却闪出一抹哀伤，柔柔地推开我，悄悄地幻化成点点辉耀的星星。我万分不舍的缓缓睁开双眼，恍若你的耳语犹在，但手中滑落的书签提醒了我，我已回到现实，美梦已不再。

~<<银色猎户座>>---薄荷雨~

19th January 2006 Wednesday

Met up with a certain "secret society" yesterday (since it is way past midnight now) to allow Gossip Central and a certain other society member to fulfill their side of the bet which they so pathetically lost. If you are starting to feel pity for them, my advice is don't because you will regret ever feeling pity for them when you know why they lost the bet. Anyway, we had a wonderful steamboat buffet at Chongqing steamboat courtesy of the two. I must admit that the idea of separating the steamboat into two soupbases was kind of unique in my opinion. Maybe it is just me that has been living in the mountains. Anyway, we spent around close to three hours eating and gossipping over there. If you think that only girls gossip, take a look at Gossip Central and you will be surprised how wrong you are. If NBS ever needed a King of Gossips, he will definitely win my vote. Hee.

Anyway, I did a little of getting out of the box after the wonder"Full" dinner. Followed the "secret society" and Gossip Central to some weird place in the heart of Raffles Place and chilled out there till around midnight. We ordered cocktails and I tasted liquor once again in my life. I think this is probably about the third time (if I did not remember wrongly that is) in my life that I had liquor and I was glad that I did not collapse after the dose of peach martini. While waiting for the drinks, I was looking at some foreigners play pool and it certainly amazed me how small the pool table looked beside these foreigners compared to how large it looked when our peers were playing on it. Anyway, after the drinks came, three of the society members as well as Gossip Central could not finish their drinks so we decided to play finger guessing and let the loser of every round take a mouthful of the remaining drinks to make sure that we do not waste Singapore's water resources. Thanks to our beloved Gossip Central, I got to taste about 4 other cocktails besides my own. I must say that A has the worst drink amongst the four. Eeeks. Wonder what they added into his drink. I guess they must have hated him very much to recommend him that drink. Just kidding. If A is reading this, please don't kill poor little me k? So that is about it for the day. Till the next time...... =p

(PS: Just to clarify one thing and to make it explicit so that no one else (especially the secret society and Gossip Central) will further tease me on this matter: I just said that the waitress that served us at the curry flavor house was very cute. That's all. Nothing much k?)

17th January 2006 Tuesday

Had the first lecture of the semester today. I must say that I sort of missed lecture after my attachment. Missed those breaks that you could self declare and switch off your brain during the boring bits of the lecture. And to think that I was always complaining about lectures in the past. I guess you never ever do appreciate what you have got until you experience something worse ain't it? So maybe all of us should be given PoW treatment to teach us to appreciate life huh? Hmm. Just kidding. Oh and did I mention that the lecture theatre was exceptionally crowded today. Was it because everyone is starting to appreciate lectures after their attachment or what?

Saw a few people today that I remember having met and talked with but can't recall the name. Am I suffering from short term memory or what? Or could that be attributed to my poor observation skills as well? Someone save me. I need a new brain. Add a pair of observant eyes into the request list as well. =p

16th January 2006 Monday

Finally back to school. Just when I was heaving a sigh of relief on the realisation that I only have two hours of lessons compared to the eight hours of work during attachment, guess what I found out? I found out that half my attachment pay will probably go to paying for the new textbooks and all those notes that we had to print to read. Expensive books and notes NTU sells. In addition, I found out that since my AA306 seminar might be cancelled whenever there is a lecture, my Monday has a potential seven hours break. Great. How great can your first day back at school be? Anyway, that aside, I finally had my first auditing lesson today. Mostly administration matters and group splitting. Finally got to know who is the Margaret that everyone is talking about as I am assigned to the same group as her. I meant I saw her before, even talked to her, but I have never realised that she is that famous Margaret. Hmm. I guess I wasn't too wrong when I told ES that my observation skills deserve a big zero. How lucky that NTU Accountancy does not have a module on observation. Else I guess I'd never be able to graduate because of that module.

Sidetrack a little. Was bored yesterday so me finally made a visit to the blog of Missy Tutti that allegedly has about five suitors (Or was it more? Can't really remember) falling under the power of the swish of her skirt. Oops. Was I being too exagerrating? Hmm. Just kidding. Those of you reading this, please don't kill little poor me k? And if Missy Tutti herself is reading this by any chance, I am not making fun of you k? Really! So don't search me out to kill me. Anyway, I find the piano piece that was her background music real nice. Not that I know much about music. On the contrary, I know nuts about piano pieces. But I really find that piano piece nice and kind of sad. Was that the feeling that it was meant to convey? Hmm. I don't know. Anyway, do tell me if anyone knows the title of that piano piece k? By the way, I just found out too that Nomis is a fellow liker of Hermione. High five!

15th January 2006 Sunday

Went for a mentor outing yesterday. Chilled out at a cafe in Holland Village with the mentor group, celebrating the birthday of one of our managers. From what I have observed during my short eight weeks stay in Deloitte, I must say that our mentor group is one of the best. So much so that I could even bring myself to say "Who say auditors have no life?". Hee. Talked with a few new people from our mentor group which I have never seen before around office. Guess they must be busy on the job. Nevertheless, they are really friendly for a first meeting. I think I would request for the same mentor group when I get back to Deloitte in half a year's time.

Well, it is back to school for me tomorrow and I guess that means more sleeping time and a lot more readings for me compared to working life. Hope there won't be a crowd to jostle with in the bookshop when I go there to purchase my books tomorrow. Hate crowds. Perhaps that's why I have never attended a large scale countdown in my life before. Be it Christmas, New Year, Chinese New Year or the millenium. I'd rather count down in the comfort of my home, in front of the TV. Boring life I lead huh? Now you know why I say I must get out of the box someday. Till that day~~~

14th January 2006 Saturday

Seemed like ages since I last updated my blog. So long it seemed that I actually had to stop to recall my password into blogspot. I guess auditing has seriously eroded my memory. Not that it requires lots of memory work. I guess much is because I am simply not accustomed yet to waking up so early in the morning. Anyway, it is back to school after eight weeks of attachment and other categories of worries to worry about. First on the list will be Final Year Project. Gosh. I have a feeling the entire Group B cohort is going to spend many sleepless nights in the Free Access Lab worrying over Final Year Project this coming semester. How glad I am that I live so near school. I guess it is back to the boring mundane life of everyday school again. Somehow I have an urge to break out of my routine life this semester. But somehow I still feel that as always, that will remain but an urge.

10th January 2006 Tuesday

Went out with an unusual group of friends today. Or should I say it was yesterday since it is past midnight now? Oops. Before I go on, guess I better clarify the word 'unusual'. Unusual in this context means a group that I seldom hang out with. Well, I would say I have never hanged out with such a combination before. Went to Suntec for dinner with Avarian, Dino and Ah-Xiao. Went to a noodle restuarant in the basement which I have never been before. I wouldn't say that the food is fantastic but I guess it would be a good place to hang out since it has free flow of coffee and tea with every set meal ordered. Spent some time there gossiping and answering weird questions posted by Dino and Ah-Xiao. Amazing how they could come up with such weird questions. Anyway, it was fun hanging out with them. Dino and Ah-Xiao went off after dinner. Ah-Xiao went off because poor she got to work today, which is a public holiday! So don't doubt it when people tell you that auditors have no life. Dino went off as she supposedly wants to sleep early. Me and Avarian went for a movie after dinner. Watched Chronicles of Narnia. Not a bad movie. At least not as bad as some people made that movie sound. But I did find some of the parts a little absurd. Well, I guess they are probably for those who have read the book to understand, as it always happens for movies filmed after a book. They simply take prior knowledge for granted to some extent. Yawn. Been quite a fun and rather unexpected day for me. As Avarian terms it, it is good to get out of the box at times. So I guess I's probably be back to the box again tomorrow. Awaiting the next opening of the box. Open it open it!!!

8th January 2006 Sunday

看了仁慈的筹款演出，感触良多。曾几何时，连最简单的幸福都变得那么难得？最可恨的是，因为最近某些慈善团体的事故，使得人们开始对其余的慈善团体起了疑心，甚至一把竹竿打翻一船人地把所有慈善团体都视为一伙的。人们虽然愤恨自己捐出的钱未能真正的帮助到病人，但他们莫忘了，若因为如此而对其余的慈善团体起疑心，最终惩罚的并不是作恶的人，而是真正需要帮助的病人啊。世上就是因为有那么多的骗子的存在，导致人们被骗，因而起了戒心，所以真正需要帮助的人才无法得到所需的援助。遗憾。遗憾。遗憾。

5th January 2006 Thursday

Many a time, hurt is caused by the misinterpretation of a good intention. In that case, could we create happiness by believing that all intentions, whether bad or good, are good? Naive? Perhaps. But would you rather choose to be naive or hurt?

But we can't really teach our heart the way we want to interpret intentions, ain't it?

5th January 2006 Thursday

什么是信任？
信任是当一个人说她的不是，你会相信她。
信任是当第二个人也说她的不是，你依然相信她。
信任是当第三个人说她的不是，你仍然选择相信她。
信任是当全世界都说她的不是，你会选择与世界为敌，与她站在同一个阵线上。

4th January 2006 Wednesday

天堂到底是怎样的一个地方？是象童话里形容的那般？到处都挂满云彩，偶尔会有一两个天使飞过，没有悲伤只有快乐的地方？还是天堂根本就不是一个地方？或许天堂是一种感觉？一种很平静，很祥和的感觉？或是天堂可能是一样东西？一样人间的至宝？或是天堂也可能是一个人？一个非常重要的人。

我不知道。因为我没到过天堂，没拥有过天堂，没感觉过天堂，没见过天堂。或许可能我已经拥有过天堂而不晓得。也可能我已经失去了天堂。我不知道。我真的不知道。

如果天堂可以是一个人，我知道你将会是我的天堂。。。。。。

1st January 2006 Sunday

The world will be a better place if everyone just didn't treat everything that is unimportant to them to be as unimportant to others......

Happy New Year to everyone. May the new year be a better one for everyone. May the world be a better one for everyone. And may the number of smiles and laughter on Earth multiply with every passing year.