29th October 2006 Sunday

Were there times when you felt so sad that you thought you could die from the heart break? But you survived through all that ain't it? Attended the yearly praying routine that was held at my aunt's house for my grandmother's death anniversary. Looking at the faces of those relatives around me every year, I never ever failed to feel amazed by how time could put a smile back on these faces of the very people who cried their hearts out at my grandmother's death bed. Looking back, memories that I possessed of my grandmother looks faded. Perhaps that would happen to all things with time. Whatever memories that we hold of each other will fade one day. Whatever hurt that we once felt will eventually heal. And you will be surprised how fast time does all these. Disagree? Look back at those times when you thought that the hurt would last forever. Did it still hurt as much as before? Look back at those memories that you once possessed of the people around you when you were just a baby. Could you remember all those? Changed your opinion about my theory yet? But is that such a bad thing after all? At least it tells you that anything and everything will come to pass with time......

原来心痛比想象的更容易被遗忘。。。。。。

24th October 2006 Tuesday

Bored bored and bored. Been feeling really restless and it is written all over my face. Gosh. Sometimes I wonder what do I really want. During busy times, I yearn for rest like everyone else. And when there are more than enough time for rest, I wonder what to do and how to spend that extra time. We never ever do get satisfied do we? Bored bored and bored.

Anyone got any nice Gu3 Zhuang1 drama serials to recommend? I simply love Gu3 Zhuang1 drama serials.

Tuesdays remind me of "Tuesdays with Morrie"......

23rd October 2006 Monday

在某个网站读到了以下的一段文字。多少它也叙述了我的想法吧。与君分享。。。

很多事情，我不明白，我也不想去明白。人生，有生老病死。有生，必有死；有聚，必有散；想通了，只是一个循环。生，没什么值得开心；死，也没什么值得悲哀的。尽管如此，我们放得下吗？生活不可能一帆风顺，有想遗忘的，也有值得怀念的。但生活总会继续，一些事情不能沉浸在过去。我们所能做的，只是好好生活，爱身边每一个你爱的和爱你的人。尽管有太多无奈，太多伤痛，世间的一切，又岂是那么简单？尝试着让自己放下该放下的，这样才会快乐。过奈何桥的时候，我不会喝孟婆汤。如果有选择的话。因为这个世间有让我希望永远记得的人。

14th October 2006 Saturday

刚读完了晴菜的<<天使栖息的窗口>>。读后感只有简单的一句"感动"。好久都没这么感动过了。以往所读过的书都有那么的一两句话会深深的感动着我。我也时常会把这些感人的话写在这个博客里。但要我从<<天使栖息的窗口>>里说出那么的一两句感动我的话，我却无法办到。我想是简单的文字透过奇妙的组合配搭所得到的特别效应吧。我想是整个故事本身感动了我吧。又或许故事的题材用了我喜欢的雪和天使让我深深的着迷吧。又或许因为故事不和其他故事一般以情为主题，而用了生命为故事的灵魂。我也无法具体的说出这故事哪里吸引我。但那重要吗？我想不。重要的还是故事感动了我。这不就已经足够了吗？

原来在生活里所淡忘的情感竟然可以从书中找回。

9th October 2006 Monday

Looking back at the past, I found I changed quite a bit. And I am afraid it isn't too much for the better. For one, I realised I started to not think too much about the feelings of others whenever I speak. I guess I started to learn to speak my mind somewhere in time regardless of whether I might offend others. Surprising that I suddenly learnt how to do this when I failed so many times in the past. I guess when at some point of your life, you learnt how to survive being an island, you start to shut everyone else out of your life. You start to believe that if you could survive without them, probably you never needed them in the first place.

When you start to have expectations of yourself, you constantly fail to meet them. I guess sometimes, you just have to learn to make yourself at ease with the situation and be happy with what you get. Perhaps life would be better then. Been ages since I last bought a CD. Maybe I should buy one soon. Just out of the impulse to buy something. Hah~ Any good and nice Chinese CDs to recommend? Anyone?