28th October 2004 Thursday

"Love Is Everything? Or is that just a L.I.E?"

Another day wasted without much studying. Went to tuition. *Sigh* No time to study already. *Sigh* How? Zen Me Ban Ne? =p Sounds familiar right? =p *Sigh* Already planning what to do after my exams. How to concentrate on studies? Think I am going to learn some web authoring after exams and come up with a surprise website. =p Look out for it. =p Help! I can't concentrate. Save me!

(PS: To Ms XY and Ms JY: If you all happen to read this. Please stop "geking" me with those photos. AArgh!!! And all the best to your individual exams. We all jia you!)

26th October 2004 Monday

Tried to dial into 93.3 FM just now to try to win JIng Ru's singles but failed. Sigh. Will try again. Studied a little of Research Methods just now. Didn't made much progress. Couldn't tell what I have studied will be tested in the exams. I also don't think I am able to finish that much by next Tuesday. Luckily it is open book and the tutor doesn't want anything from the book. Wonder could that be considered a good news or a bad news. Guess there are two sides to every story. Good news is I don't have to kill my brain cells to memorize. Bad news is that the paper is likley to be very difficult with nothing from the book that you can use. Sigh.

25th October 2004 Monday

Went to Fish Leong concert. She is as pretty as ever and sings as well as ever. Nice concert and I guess NTU left quite an impression with her through our standing ovation towards the end. Hope she comes more often. But not during this time of the year when exams is coming lah. Anyway, really looking forward to her concert next year. Will sure go one. Must start saving up already. Never been to a real concert before. Wonder what it would be like. Should be able to save up the money by then I hope. Anyway, got to go already. To all of you who are still awake at this hour, nite nite.......

24th October 2004 Sunday

"Realised today that the strength of friendship is not positively correlated with the length of the friendship. It might in fact be inversely correlated."

Had a nice nice nice day today. Went to Jing Ru's autograph session. Got her autograph and even got a individual photo with my favourite DJ, Ling Zhi who was hosting her autograph session. Met up with a few of my friends, Must say a very very big thank you to Ms XY who agreed to give me tickets for Jing Ru's concert tomorrow at NTU. Thank you ah...... Been a happy day on the whole though I haven't finished my tutorial yet...... =)

22nd October 2004 Friday

"If love hurts, why do people fall in love?"

Been a hell week for me this week. Had two major presentations, one written assignment all on this week. Luckily all that has come to pass. Sigh. Been a sad week too. I am still unable to get my hands on Jing Ru's school concert tickets. Sigh. "A" said his friend wants to sell a pair for $20 and asked me if I wanted to buy. He says he is buying though I seriously doubt the truth in what he is saying. Known "A" for more than two years. I know he wouldn't spend money on such stuff. I have a feeling that he got the pair of tickets and wanted to trick me to buy from him. Well, if it was so, I didn't fall for it. Rejected the offer outright. Find it despicable to go queueing for free tickets and selling them whoever it is. Let's hope "A" did not do as what I think. If so and I know about it, I will severe all my friendship ties with him.

21st October 2004 Thursday

"'Crucio' I laughed out loud at Snape whimpering at my feet after being struck by my pain curse. 'Plead with me and I will lift it, you idiot. You deserved it for snarling at me just then. You deserve it.......'"

Sad. Was not able to get the free Jing Ru's tickets that the CAC was giving out. All because I got lessons. On top of this, L had to kepp reminding me about the loss. Super frustrated. I swear that the next person who use this to poke fun at me would not get away with it unscathed. Don't mess with me!

20th October 2004 Wednesday

"I tried to catch a piece of my breath during those few seconds out of those waters before I was dragged back again. Damn Grindylow. I struck my wand at it in frustration. Just give me two seconds out of those waters for me to mutter the counterspell would you? As I sunk to the riverbed still struggling with the Grindylow, I felt my lungs burning. I could feel the warmth of the last molecule of oxygen leaving my lungs. I swallowed a few mouthfuls of water...... Help!......"

Been a super busy week for me. Couldn't even breathe and yet I could still find time to update my blog. Must be going crazy. One major written assignment and two major presentations all on this week. Sigh. Couldn't even find the time to study for my examinations. Sigh. Sure gonna do badly this semester. Sigh. Couldn't be helped I guess. Guess our life consists of things more than just results. This is perhaps the only thing that I could think of to console myself. Sad thing is..... I don't know what are the other things that life consists of....... Sigh

19th October 2004 Tuesday

"Why must there be projects, grades and assignments? Aren't humans as well off without them in the past? Why must they be there to torture all of us now? Does it mean that you are good if you score well? On the other hand, are you condemned if you score badly? Sigh......."

12th October 2004 Tuesday

"Why do people like to look at the stars when they are sad? Why must people drink when they are unhappy? Why do people sigh when they are troubled? I sighed as I searched the night sky for an answer. The stars seem to have gone into hiding......"

Went to watch Bunshinsaba yesterday. Quite nice for a Korean horror movie. At least better than "Acacia" I would say. Went to Shaw Beach Road to watch the show and I must say that it is an ideal place to screen a horror film. The building itself looks haunted. Wouldn't have dared to climb the stairs of the building alone at night. Spooky place.

Boring Tuesday at usual. Did nothing much except tuitioning. *Yawn*

8th October 2004 Friday

"Do you believe that everything is predestined? If so, why must we be punished for doing something bad. We were destined to do so isn't it? If not everything was predestined, why do we find it so difficult to control our own fate?"

Boring and hot day today. Wanted to catch a movie but couldn't find anyone to watch it with. *Sigh* Wanted to settle down to do some project work but couldn't find the motivation to do it. *Sigh* Wanted to sleep but my eyes just wouldn't remain shut. *Sigh* Wanted to play but couldn't find anything to play either. *Sigh* Wanted to continue my blog but couldn't find anything else to blog. *Sigh* Boring and hot day......

4th October 2004 Monday

"As the last grain of sand seeped through the top half of the hour glass, my love for you died, never to be rekindled again.......or is it? Could the hour glass be turned over to start the trickling of the sand again? I guess that will depend on how heavy that hour glass is......."

Boring Tuesday. Went to accounting tutorial only to find that I forgot today's lesson is cancelled. *Sigh* Dumb research methods quiz. Think I am going to do badly this time. Though it is only 5% but I feels like a big car wheel to me. *Sigh* Totally demoralized by it. *Sigh* Hope it will turn up fine. *Sigh* Don't know what to say about today. Lousy day for me...... *Sigh*

3rd October 2004 Sunday

Went to work as usual yesterday. My favourite student turned up after missing her lessons last week. Excuse being she was busy moving house. Quite a routine Saturday for me except that the conversation between me and my favourite student touched a few sensitive issues. Didn't know that her parents are divorced and she is staying with her mother until she told me today. She sounded quite unmoved by the issue, even stating that it was a good thing as she found her father irritating. Although she was unmoved over the issue, I couldn't help but feel sad and sorry for her. Although unsaid, I know it must be hard on her to lose one of her closest kin at that age. Sigh. Might be imagining things but I couldn't help it given my personal situation. Well, hope everything will be well for her and wish she will stay ever so happy.

My Prayer: My belated wish for Children's Day (if I do get any given my age) is for all the children out there to stay happy and carefree always, and for the world to be a simple place like that which exists in the minds of kids, with no pretence, no hatred, no fraud, only purity and innocence. Would my wish ever come true??